I was then in the second year of my medicine school. The load of the study was difficult to cope up with. If you are engaged in otherwise for personal or social obligation, then the load would be more difficult to bear.
The death of my mother few months back was vivid till then. I was also away from my native district in a new environment and with new acquaintances.
In this background, I felt depressed. My depression was gradually increasing. I lost interest in the surrounding. I lost interest in my study. I lost appetite but sometime I felt craving for sweets which was difficult to control. I used to stay late in the bed, started to miss my classes, my exams.
I was fighting with myself. I was reluctant to consult with a psychiatrist.
The most dangerous point was when I was coming back from home ( a home without the mother) to my college in a train. It was a long journey. At one stage, when it was passing over a long bridge, a suicidal thought crept into my ming to jump from the train into the river. Thanks God, I didn’t do that.
I tried different means to overcome the depression.
But the best support I had got was from Del Carnegie’s book ‘Stop worrying and start living’. I was acquainted with Del Carnegie’s book from my high School years.
In ‘Stop worrying’ after every chapter the main message was written down in a single line. At the end of the first chapter was written ‘only think of today’. I started to leave a day to day basis. Every day I used to pass through many a pages. It would some sort of motivation with which I could hang over for sometime.
It was a sort of self hypnosis. I passed through the depression for 3 to 4 months. Then I recovered slowly through a process of self motivation.
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